great
i feel so untrusted.
i know i should leave that feeling alone and get a grip on myself.
as long as my conscience is clear, i don't have anything to worry about.
true that.

but it doesn't stop from giving me the suckxz feeling.

what's a family when they just keep giving you the impression that they don't trust you.
i know they love me,
and they care,
therefore they bother to do such things
just to make sure i'm on the right track.

aightt
scratch that,
i'll just have to bear with it for a few more months,
maybe years.

i'll just have to remind myself that
a few years down the road,
don't blame the family if they don't control you,
and you choose to take the wrong route.
don't blame the family if they don't ask what time you're going to be back,
give you curfews,
ask about how's school or work,
etc.

for now, just grow up,
and accept the care and concern your family is showering you with.

perhaps not the way you'd like it to be,
perhaps in a way you'd grow to detest.

just know that in time to come,
nobody will bother to do all these anymore,
even if you'd want them to.

28 July 2008

!
this is like my offline blogpost session.
haha.

my wireless connection is officially against me again...

so i was supposed to go snip my hair off today,
but the guy at the salon scared me when he said
"your hair too thick, if cut too short will look like a ball"
hahahahahhaha wth i dont even think that's the hairstyle i intended to cut
but since he speaks chinese,
i dunno how to express myself fluenty/properly in chinese,
so i said
ahhhh nvm nvm i go back think about it first :D

so i wasted like 1hr plus waiting down there.
made lisa and nas wait with me too
hahaha sorry :X

CSTD ASIA PACIFIC DANCE COMPTS
strongest suit,
didn't win.
how strange. we spent hours on it and yet it wasn't good enough to compete with others..
i'll have to admit, i love the SMU item.
hahahaha ---> ginseng ginseng ginseng ;)

on the other hand, and a higher note,
mystique got 2nd place.
not bad huh!
it's like our damn familiar piece by now,
but we hardly practiced it.
strange.
nonetheless, better than nothing :)
thank you ms lee for your hours of hardwork spent for us!

okay. so this is like my last dance involvement until Os are over.
i'm sad, kinda.
i won't be seeing cheerene and the whole lot of sdg mates for months.
that's madness and i'm sad :(

take care everyone yeah?
and those with impt exams,
ALL THE BEST! :D

hmmm, i don't even know if i'm going back for ballet class after this "break".
it's not like i'm against / hate ballet,
in fact, i appreciate it.
ballet gives you the basic techniques for quite a lot of styles i guess?
but what i appreciate more, are the friends and teachers i meet through the love of ballet.
no doubt, if you were to look at alisha,
i'm sure you'd be going
"bgirl,"
rather than "ballerina."
don't you agree with me? ;)

there's a lot of people i haven't talked to in ages.
wonder what's up with them.
haha well, take care everyone.




31 July 2008
yay i still can't connect to the net.
haha wth man i hope it gets fixed soon.
meanwhile im just doing some offline blogging.


RAPTURE WAS .A.W.E.S.O.M.E.!
HOMEY YOU WERE GREAT
HOT HOT HOT HOT HOT TO THE MAX!
duhh no one's better than you
because you the best yo! :D
GO HOMEY!
-your number one fan :D

OK so dnt's been like this, like that.
i'm more or less considerably fast..
finished working drawing, part drawing and assembling using the CAD
or whatever you call it lah.
it's s o m a n y t i m e s s s s s faster than me using hand drawing.
to those using hand drawing:
heheheh sucks to be you.
lol jokes :P

i cut my hair! 2 days ago.
first time of me feeling NOT wtf-ish after i cut my hair.
hahaha the stylist really put in a lot of effort to cut nice nice.
kay thanks thanks.
:)
i've some extra hairspray left so i might as well use it to do lil 'hawks.
the hairspray's supposedly for the dance compts
BUT IT IS OVER!
so yehh.

hmmmm went to pp today,
met up with our ol' korean friend alaina!
yep she's back, for a couple o days.
sad, she's flying back on sat.
this sat.
sooo fast? yeah alisha thinks so too :(
she's f skinny and she's the so-called "fattest" in the korean ballet school.
oh yeah, she's professional, so obviously like that . _ .
may i add she's only 15 this year.
ha.

i miss my connection.
come back soon.




3 August 2008

Ah. i know why i can't connect anymore.
Sis said the starhub contract thingy expired,
so we'll have to wait till it gets renewed.

How's things online!!
Argh, pissed off.
Can't check email,
can't go msn,
can't read blogs,
can't get more music,
can't watch youtubesssz.

Nevermind, i can live with it.
I'll bear with this for a few more days.

Went to the airport ytd,
just to send alaina off.
my sis allowed, (but she said i'd have to be home by 9.45)
so i went and reached at about 8pm?
Anddddd, guess what.
Alaina only arrived after 9++.
Gah! and my sister was like
"i'm sori mei, u hv to learn to b responsible" yada-yada.
so in the end, i went to the airport just to sit sit talk talk with them seniors.

oh yeah, saw 2 cosplayers.
and weird people carrying this doll thingy.
kitty said her friend got one of these dolls,
and they're expensive.
like $900+ for one?
people carry it around like it's alive,
like worshipping it or sth.
i wonder if it does have some magical powers in it...?

right on then.
today, we went to pasir ris park.
sis friends organised a get-together bbq session.
i managed to tan/burn myself.
hahaha i like my skin when it's red.
strange obsession eh?
yeah so it's a nice red now.

hahaha if only it was redder.
like, lobster-red.



they went off,
oh yeah saw neoguy.
he's still f*t, but im not supposed to say it. LOL.
it's damn weird la, korkor and neo as a couple.
and he's damn shy -_-

at the bbq, we had vegetarian food!
partially cuz they were all from the temple i guess.
yeah, my sis works at a temple.
for the admins and stuff.

lisa, angie, amanda,
you owe us a beach/park outing.
yay then my skin can be red again! :D




5 August 2008
it feels like forever since i last went online.


hello again, computer.
my yet again unconnected to the net computer.

today i called thru 987.
kena suan by the DJs with many many names.
hahaha but quite funny lah
i called yang "daniel"
then miss vendetta was like "aha! good one!"
hahahaha 987 rocks.
if you don't listen to 987, you should.
91.3 too.

wanted to pontang geog test
decided against it.
im going to fail it again
sorry mdm rozylawati.
:(

meh my skin ain't that reddish anymore.
it wasn't very red to begin with.
need to go stand under the sun again :/

life's been alright
surviving,
maybe need to beg borrow steal
to finish up design and technology folio,
but surviving.




7 August 2008
read about some harmful effects of UV sun rays on the newspaper my sis told me to read.

sun tanning increases risks of skin cancer.
but i like that kind of colour.
oh yeah, even sun-tanning lotion doesnt really help because
"it does not provide enough protection, so a tan would occur."
but i still want to look reddy reddy like a lobster.
hahaha ok im random i know thanks thanks.

i miss my connection.



08.08.08
8 August 2008

MY CONNECTIONS CAME BACK WHOOOOOOO!!!!!!!

Wheeeee NDP celebs today!
True enough, this year's celebs for NDP is slightly different.
It was like a parade! :D

Went to sch earlier to help to the dancers.
Apparently couldnt really help.
sigh, i dont know what to say.
hope your efforts paid off when you got your applause dancers?
i'll keep the comments to myself here :)

hmmm the parade was not bad.
the people of tk?
one word: unenthu.
and it sucks ok.
big time.
ah well, tkssians are just like that, no spirit.
i feel more together with people that get high with me at appropriate times!
thats why sLiNgGaNg exists!! WOOOO!!! :D :D

after that, we had science pracs!
physics one was like. zzz.
lisa and i had more than 25mins to sleep/rest/stone when we were done.
lol.
poor daughter was writing all the way lol.

aft that, we went out!
time spent together = must.
noelle fell asleep and didn't reply/call me.
awesome.

hahaha okay okay,
most importantly my family knows la.
o8.o8.o8 go great yeah.

and sis... how did you know?!
:S