great
i feel so untrusted.
i know i should leave that feeling alone and get a grip on myself.
as long as my conscience is clear, i don't have anything to worry about.
true that.

but it doesn't stop from giving me the suckxz feeling.

what's a family when they just keep giving you the impression that they don't trust you.
i know they love me,
and they care,
therefore they bother to do such things
just to make sure i'm on the right track.

aightt
scratch that,
i'll just have to bear with it for a few more months,
maybe years.

i'll just have to remind myself that
a few years down the road,
don't blame the family if they don't control you,
and you choose to take the wrong route.
don't blame the family if they don't ask what time you're going to be back,
give you curfews,
ask about how's school or work,
etc.

for now, just grow up,
and accept the care and concern your family is showering you with.

perhaps not the way you'd like it to be,
perhaps in a way you'd grow to detest.

just know that in time to come,
nobody will bother to do all these anymore,
even if you'd want them to.